PSA: Men… Don’t be a creep!

Last night I was walking to the store and this guy was trying to talk to me. Mostly by pretending that he knew me.

I pardoned him with a smile and proceeded to walk faster to get in front of him. I figured if I showed that I had no interest he would stop. I also called someone so I could have ears on the phone with me in case shit went from 0 to 100 REAL QUICK. And, well, my phone records every phone call so it was also so if anything, I could have proof of what was going on. I guess you can say I’m good at thinking on my feet.

As I was walking in front of him he asked me if I was “coming to chill” with him after I went to the store. (Now, for those who are trapped under a rock, when a guy say’s he wants to “chill” with you, what he is really saying is, “I really want to put my penis inside of you. But, I hope you’re too dumb to know that chilling for me means pounding on your vagina and leaving not a single wall on the inside.”) I said “no” and kept going with my call. Then he says “why not?” My response is, “Because I have a bed of my own I need to attend to”. He then replies, “where’s your panties at?” At this point I begin to ignore him and pretend to be super engrossed in my conversation all while listening to his footsteps, watching his shadow on the ground and watching his movements through the lens of my glasses. For those who don’t, I pay attention to EVERYTHING even when you think I’m not.

After getting to where I was going I still saw him behind me. My initial trip was to just get some snacks and something to drink but I had a change of plans. I went to the liquor store and purchased a bottle of wine. I purchased this as I strategically planned. When I left the store I wrapped the plastic bag around my wrist and held the neck of the bottle tightly in my hand. My father always taught me to use what I got when it comes to protecting myself.

If he followed me and made any attempt to touch me I was going to bust him in the head with the bottle and then I was going to stab him with the leftover glass.

I say this to say… Ladies always pay attention and have a game plan. Nothing I do outside is without reason. I ALWAYS think of how to turn something I have into a weapon if necessary. My keys, my pocketbook even my lotion… I have figured out how to make these things a weapon if I need to. And I ALWAYS have something in my hand when I’m outside. Because I know people are crazy so I’m always prepared to show them that they are not crazier than me. It is sad that we have to think this way but it is reality. Males unfortunately not taught to not be rapists, instead females are taught to not be rape victims. I am a rape SURVIVOR and I KNOW that be being viciously assaulted had nothing in the world to do with me. It had everything in the world to do with the person who raped me being a rapist! And I vow to NEVER  lose control of my own body ever again. And if that means I have to take your life and then sit in a jail cell…. So be it!

Guys, stop harassing us. If we want your attention it will be summonsed. If it is not just leave us the fuck alone. Don’t tell us we’re pretty if we are CLEARLY showing no interest, don’t decide to walk along with us, don’t sit next to us to force a conversation, don’t grab our arm or wrist as we are attempting to walk away, don’t call us “Ma’ or “Shorty” and then hurl insults at us when we ignore you for not at the bare minimum asking our name before choosing one for us… Don’t stop me to tell me my lips are beautiful when you see me on the phone and tears are running down my face. Did you for a second consider why I’m crying before you tried to see if there was a new desperate resting place for your unwanted balls? Don’t try me at all. And please never touch me… Ever!!!

You never know who you’re dealing with. That guy assumed that he was going to get some play from me. He thought I was another misguided hood chick that would fall for his stupidity. Meanwhile, he had no idea that I mapped out how I was going to kill him. You never know who a person is…. So leave them alone!!!!